Re: Boy Moments as Depression Antidotes.

Yes the blues are unpleasant, damnably so, and deep depression damned 50 times over, but I'm just showing off, I rode it out and in my experience it fades away but that's all in time, just what the patient hasn't fucking got! I want it and I want it Now! I'm sorry but my story about the magic of being pulled out of the blues happened a long time ago and a twin girl I was madly, truly, deeply in love with, she'd be approaching 60 now but she was twelve when I first Set eyes on those nothing short of someone get me an ambulance I've never witnessed anything approaching this, twin girls, tomboys of course, long brown hair, flat chested, I could break my neck trying to describe them. Anyway, it was up at the beach for summer holidays with friends as usual but this summer was evil I don't think it stopped raining the 3 or 4 weeks we were there, with leaden skies, spent most of the time in the tent with an air of dampness and misery. So I felt similar to what you feel give or take and I was sitting in the tent resigned to the colour of the sky and the rain, actually suffering, there was a guy in the tent with me and the twin that I loved approaches and enters our tent, she stayed nearby, but there was nothing but rain that kept everyone isolated, in their respective abodes. Anyway she enters the 10 foot tent. My woes vanished, to hear her voice, whatever the fuck she done she made concrete skies and physical discomfort go completely away. That's impossible try reaching that renewed state by any method it's the brain making you feel so it can torture you as some sort of attempt to balance whatever brains want to balance. Our brains are doing it on purpose. I once had major depression and it was inescapable however I had vivid happy dreams every night. This post isn't as succinct as I planned and it's awful on account of me not getting any sleep last night but I'm holding out to get a full nights sleep tonight. Just remember boys can do magic, dare I say it even girls, but I'm a boylover and it's just weird. I can't remember if I relapsed into a sullen mood, or what happened post the encounter with her.