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Thanks bud. I am. I have never felt so loved, and I have never felt so liked. This kid is into me even more than I am into him without anything sexual. I don't even want him as a sexual partner but as a son, and it is a feeling so much stronger, so much better than anything I've felt before. He is the first YF that I have actually said the words "I love you" to. He brings me more gifts than even I manage to give him. From colored stones to pictures, to little plastic toys. He tells me things that are so private and so immensely powerful I don't believe I hear them. On one hand, I feel I am doing him a disservice by posting our love on this chat. I feel I am taking something private, ours, and letting it out for any eyes to see and I am going to try from now on not to share any more descriptions of our times together. On the other hand, I am so absolutely in love with him, that I can't keep it bottled and I don't have anyone in real life that I can say to how much this kid has absolutely taken over my life, so BC serves me as a pressure valve to release some of it. He gave me the bracelet and I wear it all the time. He wears his on the left wrist and I wear mine on my right. We sat down today and I took a picture of our hands, him holding mine, our bracelets touching. I don't think I have ever wanted anything more in life than what I have now. And I don't need to ask for anything any more from God, all I can say is thanks. |