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Your real issue is this Absent of MAP paranoia, boys will, as you get older, see you more as a person to respect than a friend to play with. And while it is inherent in nature, this response is still very much amplified by silly norms about interaction across generations, against a backdrop of gratuitous youth subjugation that treats young people as lesser. I get why you’d like to believe this is some uniquely Western distortion, but it really isn’t that dramatic. It’s just biology doing what it always does. You don’t stay a peer forever. You drift into the older brother role, then the father figure, and eventually the grandfather. That arc isn’t some conspiracy, it’s the default setting. Sure, people occasionally bend the mold, but they don’t escape it. Grey hair, wrinkles, and the slow shift in posture and build quietly announce the change whether you like it or not. And yes, people respond to that. They always have. It’s not a Western quirk or some cultural exaggeration. You see it everywhere, from modern cities to the most isolated communities. Different places dress it up differently, but the underlying pattern stays the same. What’s harder to understand is why you keep feeding that anger. The resentment, the sense that you’re being wronged, it doesn’t seem to be doing you any favors. You’ve heard that before, not just from me. If writing things like that helps you vent, then fine, there’s some value in that. But it also feels like you’ve been leaning into that mindset for so long that it has become your default, like you don’t quite remember how to step away from it. You talk about rejecting society, but you’re still arguing with it constantly in your head. That’s not really distance, it’s just a different kind of attachment; letting it live rent free inside you like that. I do hope things ease up for you. But if I’m being honest, it doesn’t look like you’re in much of a hurry to let them. |