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Eh, just that sometimes, maybe usually, when a BL takes on the role of father, even to someone else's kids, if you get them early enough then you're prone to not feeling sexual attraction to that boy, when you otherwise would.  That's the phenomenon I was hoping the bookish population of Boychat to make sense of for me. It doesn't appear anyone here knows why or how that happens either. I doubt it's even been studied at all. But the off switch in the brain is absolute. All of the other qualities that could be just called parental remain. I just find it fascinating. It sounds like you're a pretty healthy guy. Personally I've never felt a moment of regret for who I've always been and I appreciate the burden, even these days. I've always viewed it as a high calling and viewed us as a part of nature. Now more than perhaps ever, we're needed. To what degree we are accepted or not accepted never mattered to me. The work (when you get it) is too meaningful to worry about such things. KNOW the battlefield, sure, so you know how to navigate through the minefield. But that's all. Heh, no, it's not easy sometimes! :D  |